I AM SICK

AGAIN.

Yes dammit. Sick again. Ugh my throat feels clawed out and raw.. My cough can only described as body-wracking... hahah i made that up lol. But it's really quite uncomfortable coz my whole body clenches.. and a couple of times, my stomach decided to go along and clench, mimicking that of vomiting (thank god my stomach was empty) and each time that happened I had stupid tears leaking out of my eyes.

That would show me NOT to wait 5 frigging days before going to the doc. -.-'' Still wanna act strong.. like my body can take it. My body is weak =/

I had to take MC today sighhh. I couldn't not do it coz i knew the cough was too severe already. It would scare all my colleagues lol. I sound like I'm on my deathbed.. Not to mention the fake vomiting. =/ So one precious day of my 3 days of leave gone. It's only the 2nd month I've started working.. I hope this doesn't happen anytime soon. =X

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I got my first payslip last week. The feeling that I'm finally earning some income instead of leeching off my parents is pretty awesome. =D

That said... It's only half a month's pay. Minus away CPF and it's really not much. =/

I've planned it out already. The month of Feb would be dedicated to bringing my friends out to eat. =) friends who have been there for me and supported me when I was down and out. Be it financially or emotionally.. I am so thankful to have such friends in my life.. Even tho I know I sometimes have a shoddy way of showing appreciation. =/

Feb's pay would go to taking these such friends out for meals.. And then March and April's will go to getting a new laptop. I've borrowed Tom's one for eonssss and he has been so nice to lend me his for such a long time. Only after that would I start consistently putting money aside to save up.

I went for an extravagant zi char dinner last night. $24 per pax... super ouch i tell you.. I mean normal zichar is like ~$15. Max also about ~$17. Super heart pain. And I commented next time can we don't eat so extravagantly? and they were like huhhh this got extravagant meh? I don't get it.. Both of them have allowances $500 and less per month. How does a dinner of $24 not qualify as extravagant?

Have I really changed so much? I guess the lack of money really changes you. It teaches you to be frugal and every cent is hard earned. I know I spend money on clothes.. Seemingly frivolously. But I still keep within certain limits and cut back on other things like eating $2 cai fan for lunch in Golden shoe (heehee) and taking the train/bus instead of cab no matter how tired I am.

$24 could buy me 12 lunches at Golden shoe! It would feed me for 2 weeks! I just cannot get over that fact - that I spent $24 for a meal that was ok-not-bad.. that would have made me equally happy with my $2 meal from golden shoe. =/