I was scrolling through my OLD blog. the one i had in J2.. and I found this entry lol I was such a drama mama. :P

Today was probably one of my worst and most embarrassing days of my life...


It all started I guess this morning... When I took medication for my cramps and ate breakfast. I was afraid I'd be late and so I ran to the MRT station.


I think that was a bad idea..


The moment I reached the station... I felt really horrible and faint... HuiLing and XiaoXuan were there... Hui Ling was like... You can still get off and go home if you're not feeling well. But against my better judgment, I stayed on the train. =x


The moment the train moved... I felt really really bad.... The motion churned my stomach and I started feeling really terrible... There was an intense pain in my stomach.. The ride to Commonwealth station from Queenstown was the worst and the longest I have ever had to endure...


Upon reaching Commonwealth I felt like throwing up. My stomach contracted even worse and... Well you know... The feeling you get when you're vomiting.... But nothing came out... I thought probably I had some digestive problems... Just go toilet bah...


That didn't work though.... In the toilet... Nothing happened... But the pain just got even more worse and I felt like dying... I kept on calling out to Hui Ling.. It was so painful... Think if I had the energy I would have been screaming.. But I could only clutch the toilet roll holder really tightly and wish that it would all go away...


I finally felt so suffocated I made my way out of the toilet to the corridor just outside. Ahh.... Fresh air. But for some reason... The pain made my legs like jelly.... I sat... Then I lay on the floor outside the toilet. At first... I had intended to lie for a while, when I felt better than I'd go home. But I never felt better... And I kept on groaning.


Eventually, someone called the ambulance for me... Thankfully... =) While we were waiting... The people at Commonwealth station rubbed some medicated oil for me... It helped much... =)


In no time, the paramedics reached and I got carried up the stairs into the bedlike thingy. Then wheeled all the way to the lift. I have never been so embarrassed before... RVH is nearby and the whole station was swarming with students and they were all staring at me... I felt like burrowing myself deep within the blanket and never coming out again...


The lift was so full of students and one of the paramedics was like... Isn't the lift for non-able bodied people?? How come it's so full of students?? Haha... I was thinking.. I am usually one of those students that take the lift.. =x


When I was being wheeled down the ramp... The careless paramedic pushing me hooked my leg onto the railing and my ankle somewhat twisted. Naturally... I screamed in pain... The best part was the other paramedic was like Why you scream? What happened?? Her tone was like... Why in heaven's name are you screaming for no reason... -.-''


Luckily, no damage done there...


When I reached the hospital.. I was SUPER scared.... I hoped feverently I didn't have appendicitis like Rupa. I'd have to go on MC... I'd be operated on... I'd get lots of jabs... I was extremely terrified.


I guess on the lucky side I only got 2 extremely painful jabs. It eased the pain a lot.. But it didn't make it go away. =(


They weren't sure what was wrong with me... Kept on asking me if I had my menses... What day of the cycle was it... Then they asked me to give them a urine sample. I couldn't. -.-'' I had left whatever wastes of my body in Commonwealth toilet... There was nothing left.


So a kind nurse gave me a full cup of warm water.. Which I couldn't finish but no matter... And they had to wait. Haha... Wait until I could go to the toilet. =x


After giving them the sample I was awake for awhile... Then slept... I was so tired... And it seemed like a damn comfortable way to forget the pain..


That was basically my ordeal today...






During which... I have realised my parents don't love me or don't really care that much about me and think I'm faking all this..


Starts when I was in the toilet and I asked HL to call mummy. I told her I was at Commonwealth station and was in real pain... And I needed her to send me back coz it was really bad.... You know what she says?!?!?!!!! She says she cannot pick me as she has to send daddy to hospital for an appointment at 8!


Apparently she had the mistaken impression that i was in school. Said that the maid didn't say i was at Commonwealth station. But knowing my mom... She has selective hearing... So if she thought i was in school.. She sometimes doesn't listen to the little details. Anyway this had happened before 7. Even if I had reached school she could still pick me up and send daddy to the hospital on time. -.-''


So she happily tells me to take a train home... I said I couldn't make it home by train... And so she suggested a cab. How's that for a caring mother??!? Outside the toilet.. Called her again to say the ambulance was coming. And she talked to me in that tone that says what you need the ambulance for? I was so hurt by her... I can't believe she's my mom...


And for the most cutting remark.... This came from my dad.


Mummy came to the hospital at 7 plus... Just before I got my jabs... And she said Daddy says you are so drama. I just felt like screaming and throwing things at her there and then... It's not as if I had wanted to go to hospital. It's not like I asked for any of this. It's not like I'm so attention-starved I have to fake a stomache just to get attention!!!


I hate them when they're so inconsiderate. I know they love me... But sometimes... They can be so inconsiderate and hurting... And they don't really know how to show it. Bad enough mummy's always going out dancing and god knows what else with her friends, she also hardly talks to us as all her time at home is spent on the phone!!! And my dad... He's always at work. Plus the fact he's so fierce and used to be the one caning and scolding us. He's also got a tongue that can cut you really deep... He just doesn't care about our feelings... If he wants to scold, he would call us any degrading and insulting name...


I wonder how I managed to survive so long in my dysfunctional family. Even jie talks about problems with our parents... They're so.... I dunno... They just cannot connect with their children.. Except maybe mei... Bcoz she doesn't get into their bad books...


Whatever la... I can almost hate my parents right now... I wish they could be like normal parents and show me concern. Hell... How often does your daughter with not a single medical problem gets admitted to hospital??!?!!!


Sigh... Some concern they've shown. At the hospital and the journey back.. Mummy was on the phone the whole damn time. -.-